I am on a journey. I have often felt it is hardest to forgive myself for mistakes, misgivings and wrongdoings. But, right now, I am struggling with forgiving a family member for things I did not even know still hurt.
During this process, I am not being very nice or respectful. And, I am in a cycle. Not stuck, exactly...but, I am finding it hard to forgive myself for how I am treating this person right now because of the things they did long ago (that I am still working to forgive and FORGET!). Forgetting is really the key. You can't truly forgive, until you forget, I have found. You can't forget until you work through and come to terms with all the feelings you have!
I am grateful to be on this journey with some support. I have my church that provides a community that explores all kinds of questions, answers and hypotheses. I have my husband. I have my friends that listen. I have my sister. I have my aunts. This support helps to keep me from getting wrapped up in my head. It's a journey.
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